The Heart's Music Can Heal

     I remember even now after all these years working with the public in retail, to always smile.     At times it is just all I muster. The best thing is that it is contagious.  It just makes a difference in a day to someone that you don't even know.       I'm still smiling, although I don't know why , just comes out.     In recent days the temperature has been really nice, the leaves are turning color and today as I was watching the kids trick or treat, I had to smile.  Just for a few hours I felt a sensation of past innocence, perhaps reliving being a kid again.        Here we are just minutes to November with everything being crazy in the world today, still I'm smiling.        Well, I hope you are smiling too Stephen and everything is ok with you and your family, I think of you often, always do,      How much I want you to hold my hand and tell me everything will be fine, miss you so much!      December will be a testing period again from where I was ten yea

Hello Stephen  Hopefully everyone and everything are on the up and up  .  Thinking about all of you.  I wonder if the trees are full of color in New England.  The colors here in Ohio is kinda dull.   Sunday, the kids and I went over to mom and dad's, took a walk in the field, all the way to the back.  Brought back so many memories. Haven't done that for a long time.  Nice to walk with my sister and my nephew Scott.   I don't want to think about how down I feel, I guess the blues.    Haven't forgotten you Schizz, you have a great day, love you very much Sally

I wanted to give you an ideal how I have been doing on my diet through Ohio health.  My sister tells me that I take good pictures. Me , I hate my pictures and this is why.  Seems like everyone else takes a good one to me, so I took my picture without any makeup.   If I am scary Stephen, I'M Sorry. Next one will be better.      Love ya very much, love and prayers to you and everyone! Sally

You know there are so many songs out there that can sum up how we as listeners feel inside, especially if feeling happy or sad.    Today I had to go in for a evaluation from a Psychologist for Social Security Benefits.  I am sure it will help with my weight loss too.     It's been a long week of ups and downs as my fiftieth Birthday comes around.  That's no big deal , but what follows is just a reminder of the ten years since Jeff's death.     Within these past ten years many special people have blessed the road I have traveled but none so like you Stephen A Schizz.    Memories are all I have anymore of the happiness I had when you were here and when you were back home in Amesbury , MA with the writings you shared.     Been so long since I heard from you, I keep believing that somehow you read these blogs and you still care.      I miss you, everything about you.  How honored I felt and still feel when you looked my way.      I truly love and trust you wholeheartedly

  You are probably fast asleep, so when you wake up, here's praying you have a wonderful day at the office and your family has a fantastic day too.   Had my painting class last evening  with only two people but it went well.  Did a fall picture with water and trees.  Very proud how it came out, Again I need to detail it.  Love you very much Stronger, every day Schizz.  Take care, love ad prayers always Sally

    Hello Stephen,              Thinking about you right now , how I miss you, your kindness and the security of your presence.         It's tough being a single woman, it helps though having two teenage, especially a son.  That does keep the cruds away.     I know FaceBook is another matter, I kinda snarled at those guys who try to send friend requests.  I noticed one jerk who was collecting widows on facebook.  Makes me so angry.  I know what these women are going through.  I learned from years past , to ignore these scammers.  I thought I'd at least warn others about it these people.       Miss being around you Schizz.  It's never the same.  I do hope and pray all is fine up there.      Love you so much, love and prayers to everyone! Sally    

Very early ,but hope you are having a great weekend so far.  Well early Sunday morning.   My earache got the better of me but I am feeling OK now.   I know it's been beautiful weather these last few days.  I could imagine you all have been taking advantage of it in Massachusetts.   Hope and pray you are fine Stephen , love and prayers to everyone too.   Always thinking about my Scbizz, if I can call you mine.  I know at times I can take liberties , maybe at times I shouldn't but I do love and care about you so. Please take care of yourself and all there. Yours only Sally

   Hello Stephen, hope you get a good night's sleep. Hopefully I catch ya before you fall asleep for a change since I have been writing late.      You ought to get an alarm clock like the clock my mom got dad, only it's not an alarm clock, it's a Coo-coo clock, only it's a rooster that comes out from a barn and crows .  Can't wait to see that, hope that gives you a grin Schizz.  If the rest of the week is not so good and you need to chuckle a bit, just think of that.  Love you so much!   Love and prayers all around Sally

   The thought came to me as I headed off to bed tonight.     True , it may be purely simple but it's true nevertheless.     Within all of us is a love, the fuel that lights the soul creating an everlasting brightness.   Those around us see and that which we ourselves maybe oblivious to.     I say this Stephen because you could always see it in me towards you which I am thankful and blessed!      Hope and pray you are doing fine and having a good week Schizz.   Hello, love and prayers to your family.  Love and prayers to you too Schizz.  To you many hugs and kisses for being just you! Much love Sally

Just got done doing my evening shores even though it's early morning.    This always consist of laundry, dishes and straightening the house.    Now that it's cooler, I am working on my steps outside, hopefully I will get to paint it before it gets too cold.  I know it's cooler again, the temperature change get me a nice earache.     Jon came home from school feeling bummy with chills.  So the season is churning along its merry little path of misery.      Hope and pray you had a delightful Birthday, was thinking about you all day and wishing your day was special.      I know you need your rest , so I will pray that your day will be good.  Always want you to be safe and well.  You are very dear sweetheart.   Love you so very much Schizz, love and prayers to all! Sally

  Happy Birthday Sir Schizz,  thought I would add a little Swiss Schiss to the title today.    Don't Know what your plans are today but I sure wish you the best of everything the day has to offer.    All the love and happiness that comes your way.    Since I can't have cake, make sure you have extra.  You do better with it than I could.     Stay young at heart and you will always be young, again you are better at that than I am too, that is the best thing to do!     I am going to share a memory that I have of you, it was about six years ago this month actually when I discovered just how much you meant to me, though it took so long to register in my mind. Good thing my heart never forgot what you were trying to convey to me then.   I know I use music so much to illustrate my feelings at times but sometimes that is all I can do because words trip.     I remember the songs that were playing on the radio on that day after I went home, the best day ever.     Hope you enjoy,

Here are some pictures, hope you are fine Stephen Love ya Sally

Hmm, I wonder whose birthday is it anyway tomorrow?  Gosh Stephen do you?   Ok I know, nobody likes a smarty pants.    Was painting yesterday. Working on the old church mom and dad were married in before the Alum Creek Reservoir took it. I was looking up the pictures of it on the Delaware Historical website. I found two wonderful pictures of it and even the old Cheshire road bridge, actually about four of them.  Amazing to see them, brought back a lot of memories, so few though since I was young then.    Sure hope everyone is safe in Amesbury,MA and that you are doing good Mr. Stephen Anthony Schizz!  Love and miss you so much, have a good day, pray the sun is out there! Sally

Hi Stephen Sweet Stephen,      Hope and pray you are doing good and having a nice evening.  You probably are in bed, either wake or fast asleep.   So you have pleasant dreams filled with lots of love!   These thoughts I am sending you to bring a smile, that mesmerising smile, love you so very much.   Have a glorious blessed day tomorrow! Sally

   Decided not to watch the debate.   Just will make me upset.  The media the way it is always declares the same winner.    Sure hope and pray all of you are ok.   Isnt a day that goes by , you arent on my mind. and I dont think about being by your side.  Everything is the same.    Been really nice the last two days, of course not for the folks getting slammed by Matthew.    Just wanted to say hi and send my love, have a wonderful evening, love you so much Stephen Schizz Sally

  Good morning sweetheart,          Wish I could give you a hug , so I am sending you a smile and wishing you a wonderful day.     Jon had his senior pictures taken out at mom and dad's Sunday.  His cousin Scott took them they were very nice, Scott is going to put them in a folder and let the family pick their favorite.  Real nice of Scott.    So far so good the week is going , pray the yours and everyone in your family are too.   You all are ways in my prayers.    Always thinking of you Stephen. Love you so very much!   Have a great day! Sally

   But wanted to say Hi and I love you Stephen Anthony Schizz, love and prayers to everyone too Sally