The Heart's Music Can Heal

        Fighting insomnia has drained me and wore me down so much lately, hope and pray Stephen, you and all the family are doing well and had a wonderful Christmas, please have a safe New Years.   I am doing ok, kids are too, you are still the one and only man, that is certain wanted you to know that.  I will have to write you of all of the stuff going on when I feel better.  Love you lots Schizz!

      Been taking my daughter everywhere with her friend Crystal, well mostly here.  Crystal spent three days here.  This is really the only chance I have had in the last three days.  Jon and his girlfriend Heather took the girls and I to see the Zoo Lights in Columbus.  I have been busy doing that and baking.  Tomorrow I have to start and finish some artwork for a secrete Santa, never felt so tired in my whole life.  The kids and I watched "The Book Thief " together tonight, a well done film, very good.  Still doing my Avon.  Got a good deal on Naturals Shower Gel, Body Spray and Body Lotion, all three for $ 7.00.  Considering that the body spray and body lotion is $ 8.00 a piece, its a great deal.     Depression and blue wise, I am doing better, I have to take Scooter and Daisy first of the month to see the Vet, I know I will cry again.  It takes me a while to work it out.      I have decided to go to CONCI at Polaris to help me mange my weight and eating habits.  I belie

   Sun is out and the temperature is about 60, doesn't look like a possibility f a white Christmas.   Been applying for employment and doing my Christmas Crafting too, been having a difficult time falling asleep..so I am tired.    I wonder how your day is going, hope its good and you are well.  You know I think about you and everyone.   I think this week has had enough eventful things happening.  I sure could use some good news.  Just being held by you would chase the blues away for sure !   Be careful going home, love you so very much Stephen!

   I wrote out a tribute to Murphy on my Facebook page, everyone has been so wonderful to express their concern.  Been an off feeling day .  Yesterday after the kids got home, Jon and I went out to my folks to bury Murphy out by Haley who I had when Jeff was alive, mom and dad took her after Jeff died because I could only have one dog at the time.  Jon had a very difficult time dealing with Murphy's death.  It surprised me how hard he took it..somewhat, I knew he was close to Murphy, especially after his dad died.  Mom came out and helped us find a good spot and Jon lovingly carried Murph out.  Murphy is under a beautiful pine tree by the field.    I guess all day just feels empty getting use to his absence.  Daisy and Scooter are getting closer to all of us now.  They are really affectionate dogs.    Some probably find it silly that I carry on so about losing pets, they do however become a big part of life.  In a way other than their companionship, they watch out for us and prov

   Battling to keep Murphy seems to be a full time job within its self.  I kinda cried telling my sister and asking her for advice.  She has been down this road many times with pets.  So I took her advice and have been getting fluids down him and getting him to eat a little at a time.  I know animals can tell humans in their own way when its time to quit, its usually when they give up eating all together.  My dog has a nasty ear infection which is spreading throughout his body, its been difficult to get him to the vet when funds are low, seems so expensive.  I have been using memory and tried remedies on him, which has only delayed its progress.  I don't give easy, so I try.     Hope and pray everything up in Amesbury, MA is ok and all of the family are well and you are taking care of yourself Schizz.  You know how much I worry about you Stephen.  Should call you The Quiet Man..because I haven't heard from you for awhile..lol..John Wayne!   Please take care, love you very mu

     After midnight and here I am again up and lonely..lonely for companionship.  How I miss talking to you Stephen.  Thinking back, I miss the days how I looked forward in seeing you because no matter what I always felt better and complete around you.  Time goes by and I just get feeling more down without you.   I wonder if you  understand that if I was able, I'd see you in less than a heartbeat. I feel like I am selfish because I am thinking about how much I miss you and how much my sisters and my parents enjoy having me around sometimes.  I am selfish because I don't seem to give you up because, HONESTLY, I don't want too!!!!!!!!!!!  How you feel about that, I am not sure now since its been several months since you last wrote.    Since I am a woman and we do odd things like needing to know if a man still cares about them sometimes more than men think we should..well at least this strange woman does.  Everyday I pray to be a better person, to care more , to love more  an

I just wanted to send you a morning smile, love you,may your day be blessed 😊

    Been overly busy today trying to finish up all the holiday stuff, proud to say Oh I'm about half done...Phew..yeah thought maybe I would have finished more than that..oh well.  Did my online Avon training , it was really informative.  I found it somewhat amusing that to lessen wrinkles on the face at night you should lie on your back.   Just can't get comfortable that way, so I guess I am in big trouble.  Did you know a person has over 15,000 facial expressions, this too can age your skin.  A person can't help that but Avon can help fight it with their Anew Skin Care line...so you know an interesting tidbit.    Been caring for old Murphy, poor old dog, I have been nursing, bathing and doctoring him...he has been giving me dirty looks but loves the attention.  Old T the cat is still holding her ground too, kinda cute, the old animal home for the ages..I guess.   Hope and pray you are surviving the holiday woes.  The  Christmas commercials are getting more annoying, Toy