The Heart's Music Can Heal

        Fighting insomnia has drained me and wore me down so much lately, hope and pray Stephen, you and all the family are doing well and had a wonderful Christmas, please have a safe New Years.   I am doing ok, kids are too, you are still the one and only man, that is certain wanted you to know that.  I will have to write you of all of the stuff going on when I feel better.  Love you lots Schizz!

      Been taking my daughter everywhere with her friend Crystal, well mostly here.  Crystal spent three days here.  This is really the only chance I have had in the last three days.  Jon and his girlfriend Heather took the girls and I to see the Zoo Lights in Columbus.  I have been busy doing that and baking.  Tomorrow I have to start and finish some artwork for a secrete Santa, never felt so tired in my whole life.  The kids and I watched "The Book Thief " together tonight, a well done film, very good.  Still doing my Avon.  Got a good deal on Naturals Shower Gel, Body Spray and Body Lotion, all three for $ 7.00.  Considering that the body spray and body lotion is $ 8.00 a piece, its a great deal.     Depression and blue wise, I am doing better, I have to take Scooter and Daisy first of the month to see the Vet, I know I will cry again.  It takes me a while to work it out.      I have decided to go to CONCI at Polaris to help me mange my weight and eating habits.  I belie

   Sun is out and the temperature is about 60, doesn't look like a possibility f a white Christmas.   Been applying for employment and doing my Christmas Crafting too, been having a difficult time falling asleep..so I am tired.    I wonder how your day is going, hope its good and you are well.  You know I think about you and everyone.   I think this week has had enough eventful things happening.  I sure could use some good news.  Just being held by you would chase the blues away for sure !   Be careful going home, love you so very much Stephen!

   I wrote out a tribute to Murphy on my Facebook page, everyone has been so wonderful to express their concern.  Been an off feeling day .  Yesterday after the kids got home, Jon and I went out to my folks to bury Murphy out by Haley who I had when Jeff was alive, mom and dad took her after Jeff died because I could only have one dog at the time.  Jon had a very difficult time dealing with Murphy's death.  It surprised me how hard he took it..somewhat, I knew he was close to Murphy, especially after his dad died.  Mom came out and helped us find a good spot and Jon lovingly carried Murph out.  Murphy is under a beautiful pine tree by the field.    I guess all day just feels empty getting use to his absence.  Daisy and Scooter are getting closer to all of us now.  They are really affectionate dogs.    Some probably find it silly that I carry on so about losing pets, they do however become a big part of life.  In a way other than their companionship, they watch out for us and prov

   Battling to keep Murphy seems to be a full time job within its self.  I kinda cried telling my sister and asking her for advice.  She has been down this road many times with pets.  So I took her advice and have been getting fluids down him and getting him to eat a little at a time.  I know animals can tell humans in their own way when its time to quit, its usually when they give up eating all together.  My dog has a nasty ear infection which is spreading throughout his body, its been difficult to get him to the vet when funds are low, seems so expensive.  I have been using memory and tried remedies on him, which has only delayed its progress.  I don't give easy, so I try.     Hope and pray everything up in Amesbury, MA is ok and all of the family are well and you are taking care of yourself Schizz.  You know how much I worry about you Stephen.  Should call you The Quiet Man..because I haven't heard from you for awhile..lol..John Wayne!   Please take care, love you very mu

     After midnight and here I am again up and lonely..lonely for companionship.  How I miss talking to you Stephen.  Thinking back, I miss the days how I looked forward in seeing you because no matter what I always felt better and complete around you.  Time goes by and I just get feeling more down without you.   I wonder if you  understand that if I was able, I'd see you in less than a heartbeat. I feel like I am selfish because I am thinking about how much I miss you and how much my sisters and my parents enjoy having me around sometimes.  I am selfish because I don't seem to give you up because, HONESTLY, I don't want too!!!!!!!!!!!  How you feel about that, I am not sure now since its been several months since you last wrote.    Since I am a woman and we do odd things like needing to know if a man still cares about them sometimes more than men think we should..well at least this strange woman does.  Everyday I pray to be a better person, to care more , to love more  an

I just wanted to send you a morning smile, love you,may your day be blessed 😊

    Been overly busy today trying to finish up all the holiday stuff, proud to say Oh I'm about half done...Phew..yeah thought maybe I would have finished more than that..oh well.  Did my online Avon training , it was really informative.  I found it somewhat amusing that to lessen wrinkles on the face at night you should lie on your back.   Just can't get comfortable that way, so I guess I am in big trouble.  Did you know a person has over 15,000 facial expressions, this too can age your skin.  A person can't help that but Avon can help fight it with their Anew Skin Care line...so you know an interesting tidbit.    Been caring for old Murphy, poor old dog, I have been nursing, bathing and doctoring him...he has been giving me dirty looks but loves the attention.  Old T the cat is still holding her ground too, kinda cute, the old animal home for the ages..I guess.   Hope and pray you are surviving the holiday woes.  The  Christmas commercials are getting more annoying, Toy

                                  Just wishing everyone a good day, praying that everyone is doing fine, staying healthy and safe.  Goodness knows time goes fast and things change. So much sadness in this world, so I just want to say Hi and send a smile to those who are down.  Today is my parents 54th Wedding Anniversary and I am so proud and grateful that they are still in my sisters and I 's life as well as our kids life.  I can't say much about my brother who is still having nothing to do with us for the lamest reasons , now digging up things from the past about my older sister.  I don't know what his issues are or what he is into, but he and my father had a heated conversation last Sunday.  All I know it isn't the brother I grew up with, so in essence its like we lost him years ago.   I am feeling so sad, not just for me feeling a loss but my parents physical state and what he is doing to them and my sisters.                                  Anymore I just have com

                                                With this stuff during the month, seems like I just feel so tired and bummy feeling, slept most of the day, did some work around the house.  Had a few storms rumble through with heavy rain.  Had too much of it, everything is so damp.  The mosquitoes and flies are horrible this year.  My legs are a mess after I walked the dogs too close to mom and dad's garden.  Those miserable things just wait for any sucker, guess who was the sucker. I got snarled at for that by my parents and my sisters, especially Vick because I had inadvertently scratched some open..I know real intelligent.                                               Hope and pray your day was good, that everything and everybody are doing well too.  Haven't heard from you for a long while, always worry if you are ok.  You know me.                                               Thinking so much about how the chemistry flows between us whenever we have seen each other.  I mis

                                                      Pray you all are well and taking care of yourselves. I always keep you Stephen and all your family in my thoughts and prayers.  The weather here is still kinda iffy, lighting is starting up again. Hope you had a good day.                                                       After I write you, I am going to "Hit The Hay" as dad says .  With the weather, household chores, scoping down the kids daily schedule and that monthly woe, I am tapped out of energy.  I just was thinking about how nice it would be just snuggling up to you..that is such a pleasant thought to go to bed on.                                                      Get some rest, I'll write you in the morning!                               Love you so much SCHIZZ!!!                                              Just like a very sweet dream

                                                 Hello Darling SCHIZZ, the title of this blog sounds rather profound doesn't.  It smacks metaphorical in a way.  I miss yesterday and  today just seems lost...so to speak, anyway, sorry I haven't written the last two days.  I started a painting and have helped Marybeth out with some household chores.                                                   I wanted to detail an old painting that dad did a long tine ago.  It reminded of Alum Creek before they made the reservoir.  Really only a few minor adjustments are needed to make it a winter scene with The Old South Berlin Presbyterian Church that mom and dad got married in.  The Church they got married in was constructed in 1910 on Africa Road.  According to records it was The New South Berlin Church with The Old South Berlin sitting next to her sister  built much earlier.                                                   Going by my last memory of the beautiful red brick structure

                                                  Just another rainy day here, been feeling the same inside.  I don't what it is but when it rains, it just makes me sleepy.  Have so much to do outside, but with weather like this , sure makes it almost impossible.  I'll have to make a phone call later on to check on my sister and my folks.  Pray they had some better days.  Hope and pray you and the family are doing well and staying safe.  Seems like I am wanting to go in several different directions lately but I am always thinking about you too.                                                   Over the holiday weekend, I noticed so many bicyclers out enjoying the nice days we had.  I had my sunroof in my car open when my daughter and I went over to my parents.  My son worked but soon came over in the explorer.  He does real well with it and spoiling his grandpa and grandma Wells with treats from his work at Arby's.  Scott is going to get treated next he said.            

                                          I know I went off again on my last blog, just so worked up about what my brother and his family have been up too.  I am getting I hope, If you can pray for all of us , I really appreciate it.                                           Pray you and your family are doing good and things aren't as stressful in your life. I really do hope so.  No one needs all this aggravation and disappointment huh?                                           Been rainy all day, took a couple days break from my artwork, going to start again tonight or tomorrow.  I forgot to take a picture of the painting I did which was for my brother, since he doesn't want it, I gave it to dad.  Got to take a picture when I am out again to check on mom, dad and Vick.  This all has been building up, I guess my brother and his family thinks we are too stupid to notice all their excuses over the years.  Must be nice to be so perfect, anyway enough of that.                  

                                                                   So how are you doing tonight?  I always wonder about that because I can't ask you directly.  I have to have faith that you are doing well and all is ok there.  Hope you enjoyed Scott and Brendan's story, two ornery nephews.  Doing better today, still somewhat tired though.  My daughter told me that while they are in New York, the choir is going to see the live version of  "Phantom Of The Opera."  Now that would be something to see, even though I have seen it about three times here in Ohio but whose counting.  So she and I watched the movie.                                                                  The kids and I stayed home today because my boy had to work.  He's doing real well, you'd be proud of him.  I called mom to check on everyone there and found out that Aunt Billie had a car accident on Sandusky Street when the throttle stuck ,that is what they believe on her old Thunderbird and

                                                                   Pray all your family are doing good, a hello to all of them Schizz, best to all of them too.  Hope you are doing well and keeping yourself healthy, thinking about how you are getting along and sending my love your way!                                                                   What a strange day today, I have been using my LG phone to take pictures to share with you right?  I am able to access my Facebook account from my phone but to use the app on it I had to re-send friend requests again, even befriending myself..how odd is that..I will never understand technology.   I downloaded an app for Blogger on my phone, still trying to figure out how to use it.                                                                  Anyway, hope and pray you are having a good week, there isn't a time I don't think about you, I am infected with your love and caring, which is wonderful and its a high I never want to com

                                                                         Cold tired day today, my daughter had a track met tonight and it was cold enough to snow...don't like to see it let alone say it huh?  She is doing well and in long jump she marked 11.5.  She wants to beat that so bad.  You know they just started.                                                                         Other than that I spent most of the day working on my Face Book art gallery. I finally got it caught up.  The computer was acting up, doing its usual crashing, I had to start it up several times from my search engine.  Tomorrow I am going to finish up my art piece I have been working on for the past few weeks.  I think its the longest I ever spent on a single work..oh well, but I want to do it right.                                                                        Pray that everyone and everything at the office are all going good and you are taking care of yourself. Hope and pray the fami

                                                                    Just wanting to check in and tell you I love you before you go to bed tonight.  Hope your day was a good one, that you are ok and all the family there is fine.                                                                    Everything seems to be the same, but whenever I think of you it is always wonderful...All my love, hugs, kisses and cuddles to you Stephen, you get some well deserved rest.  Pray your morning and your day is very bright...I will check in again tomorrow!

                                                             I think its graciously nice, always true to remind those who we love and care about that they are always so wonderful in our eyes, so on this day when everyone is looking towards Boston, Ma, I just want to remind you of that Stephen, love you so very much!                                               My favorite picture of all-time..got to be!

                                                              Just remembering what happened two years ago, just seems like it hasn't been that long.  Sure nice to see all the uplifting enthusiasm in Boston, such great encouragement for the nation and it surely needs it.  Spent my day exercising and sorting through art projects I need to get finished.  I was writing down themes for my Facebook Art Gallery, it will come easier to sort and post my work that way.   I opened all my windows to get the fresh air back in the house,it was a nice day for that!                                                              Hope you had a nice day, I always wish in my heart that your days go good for you and that everyone around you are doing fine as well and benefit from your help.                                                              I just would like to be there too when the days are full of trials, so I can give you a hug to bring you comfort.  You know hugs are great for that!

                                                               Sorry its early again, I know, was a busy day Tuesday, my daughter had a track meet and a band concert.  I feel more confident , still feeling sad, sorry if I grumbled about myself.  I get discouraged so easy sometimes.  I am doing better with losing weight and eating right.  Have to stay away from using too much of the darn salt..I know.                                                                My son likes those old Fire Birds, he talks about them because you had one once.  Since he's been working he stops and picks things up from the store.  It cracked me up, I picked up a small container of regular decaffeinated coffee at the store.  My son told me, that he needed stronger coffee, so what does he do?   He waltzes in the house with a big can of Classic Roast Coffee. "This will help me in the morning mom, the other isn't helping."  Everyone is a critic I guess...I know..I am my worse one.         

                                                                      Monday was sure nice, we did get a little rain but most of the day was beautiful.  Hope you got to enjoy it.   Pray you are all doing well Stephen, especially you!    Pat did post that darn picture, that picture is a wreck.  Nobody smile except me and I look like a hideous bloated fish..I guess you can gather I didn't like it. Gosh, I thought I was doing well on my diet and walking, sure doesn't look like it so I do extend an apology to you and not share that picture.                                                                     I am feeling really blue about it, but I can always do better, you do deserve better!     Well, I am going to try and get some rest, sorry if I am rough on myself.  Please have a wonderful day, stay safe and be careful to and from the office!  All my love, hugs and kisses..Love you so very much!                                                         Got to look at it this w

                                                              Kinda of a slow but beautiful day, the sun was out and Crystal, my daughter and I walked around Alum Creek Dam.  It was plenty busy, got a blister on my foot but got to walk a good stretch.  So far so good, our picture wasn't posted on Facebook, so we got out of that alright.  worked on my artwork just a bit today.                                                               Pray you got to enjoy the beautiful weather today yourself.  Wish we could have walked the trail together, or even better still would be the trails around where you volunteer at.  Bet it is real pretty there.                                                              Just quiet right now, the grass is greening up and the day is getting longer.  The kids will be getting out of school May 21st, so they don't have much longer to go.  My son finally is showing much improvement, so that is a relief.                                               

                                                              Hello Schizz, hope you are having a good Saturday afternoon.  Pat made down with her friend Betty.  What a pair of friends...The kids and I met them at Bob Evans in Delaware.  They haunted Goodwill first before we got there.  The kids were extremely bored out of their minds hanging around us old women..I can say I was the youngest out of the three of us..ha-ha..Got Pat beat by 20 years and Betty is older than her.  It can be said that we are all young at heart though!                                                              The kids and I were told of their glorious adventures together.  Betty spoke of her " boyfriend " yet  "just friend" Roy..figure that.. and then she told of all the men chasing after Pat...riveting isn't it, lets just say I couldn't get hardly any word in edge-wise.  I think I asked only about five questions in about a span of three hours..man-o-man.  This was topped off w

                                                                  I know I said I'd write you tomorrow, I caught a break from all the storms and confusion of the morning, so I decided to write you this morning to wish you a great day with much love and if I could I'd top it off with a tender hug!                                                                  I'm surprised I am still awake, been up and down all night long because as soon as I signed off from writing you last night.  Our area was placed underneath a Tornado Watch.  I feel asleep a few times but was waken up by lighting.  Thank goodness nothing came from all of it. Its rainy still and cloudy.  It has gotten cooler.  I'll probably crash later on today before starting on my artwork.                                                                  That young lady Lauren Hill who wanted to play in the National Ladies Basketball League and got the chance because of her inoperable brain cancer. Doctors only

                                                                   It was in the seventies today and boy was it rainy and stormy,.  I spent most of the day working on my artwork and listening to classical music, not only is it enjoyable but helps me relax and not rush through it.  My daughter's second track meet was cancelled because of the rain but yesterday she placed third in the long jump!  My son got to work on the cash register at his job, he said he enjoyed it and had a nice group of people come in tonight!                                                                    Got some flooding around the house, nothing major at all, supposed to get more rain and storms overnight but nothing severe thankfully.  Didn't look like you all up there in Amesbury got rain, although its probably heading your way so I hope you can get in one more nice day there before it moves in.                                                                   Prayerfully you had a good day today

                                                    Sorry I'm writing you a little later today, Pat talked to me on Facebook and wanted to come down Saturday and see the kids and I.  Glad its just her and not the other two, of course they wouldn't condescend to do that anyway...that is quite alright with the kids and I.  Thing is, like I said she has been wearing wigs, sometimes some of the wigs just doesn't look right.  She sent a picture of herself with an Easter card and the one she has on in it looks about the best.     I am sure the kids and I will be worn out by the time she leaves Saturday.  I know I can be a bundle of nerves but she is about ten times worse.    Especially now that Gary is gone.                                                   So if I am offish Saturday when I write and prayerfully everything will go ok..that will be the reason.                                                   Hope my handsome Schizz is doing ok and having a good day at the offic

                                                                Got home sorta of late, the kids and I were plenty worn out. I think with the spring air and entertaining kinda wears the body out.  Mom was sure tired, her and dad had a doctor's appointment today, they weren't too thrilled about that.  Got to see my nephews, Scott and Randy, my niece, you know Randy's wife and their son Brendan.  My sister Jennie and brother(her hubby) aka grandma and grandpa.  My sister doesn't like the term grandma, so Brendan calls her "Jee-Jee" like "Gi-Gi" I told them they should put a French accent with that.                                                               Well "Gi-Gi" and Grandpa Mike bought a "Grave Digger" power wheels for Brendan for Easter.  The little tike sure didn't take long to figure out how fast it goes.  He was zooming around his mom and everyone else!  He was cute yesterday because when we first got their he ran