The Heart's Music Can Heal

     Thinking about you Mr. Stephen Anthony..or I'M Schizz,  Is thinking about you keeping me from getting sleep..I'll let you decide on the facts..I think you know.  Hope and pray you are doing well and everyone up in Amesbury is ok too.  Delaware and all here is the same.  Gosh I can remember this song coming out in 1977...you know me..Miss Music..well classic "Any Type " music, not the modern stuff.  I leave that to Carianne, Jon, he likes the classic rock but mainly country.       I didn't tell you about a conversation I had with a Mennonite lady and her husband while I was having my stress test done.  They were so cute, she was 80 and he was ninety.  While he was back getting his test.  She was trying to tell me about her "Experience" with her colonoscopy test.  She was trying very hard to be polite.  "That stuff they give you to drink " she started  "Is terrible tasting , but the next day..was j...

                  Hope you like the music.  Been battling sleep and insomnia war, sometimes I feel so drained I don't write much.  I have been exercising, cutting down portions and watching the fat and calorie dial.                      Been working on the job thing and stumbled on an art opportunity that is like running a business.  Sorta like I did for Personal Touch Portraits.                   I guess this is the latest thing called  " Painting and Vino"  Its were an artist teaches Acrylic painting techniques for a finished work of art while the student can relax and sip on wine while doing the artwork..like a social event.   It is set up in restaurants and wine bars.  The company is based out of California and is trying to set up this therapeutic art experience throughout the states.     ...

         I wanted to share with you my stress test results, it said it was normal.  So my heart seems to be fine.  I feel better knowing that so I can start exercising without worrying about that.  I just know that with family history of it, makes me sorta take concern with heart related issues I experience sometimes.  More or less, its probably due to my depression and anxiety.  You probably knew that Schizz, I worry about your heart health, knowing all of what you have been through, so I pray everything is going and doing fine for you and the family is well.       I know too, you had some snow in your area, let the kids around the neighborhood fuss with shoveling your walk..ok.        Hope you are having a good day, me I got home yesterday and basically passed out because I was so tired, I couldn't sleep the night before, even today I feel little tired yet, but I'm doing fine and pray you are too. ...

   Tomorrow morning I am going in at 9 am to take a stress test.  So, I can't have any caffeine, nothing to eat or drink after midnight, that won't hurt, that's for sure.     Dad wished me "Good Luck" when I was talking to him, Got to get ready to stress, I guess..lol      Hope and pray you are doing fine Stephen and your family are ok too.  I finally blew out this darn flu, I am happy for that.  I am still looking for a good steady job that won't plague me with anxiety, seems when I get a job, the weather turns bad, or if my depression seems peaked, I feel like I have let everyone down feeling comes along, the anxiety comes a little bit harder.  Wish all of it would just go away ya know.     I pray things for you are fine and that you all are well. Thinking about you Schizz, like I do. I will let you know how everything goes with the test, I will be fine, I am sure Love you so very much, please have a good day tomo...

  Was really sicker today than the past few days, but trying not to push myself too hard, with teenagers, that is a complicated task.   To try is sorta difficult when my stomach feels like a yo-yo and my head is spinning.  Been bundled up and chilling.  What ever it is, its holding on tightly to me.   I sat up a little and watched "The War" by Ken Burns, I borrowed from the library.  I still have three DVDs to go from six.  It is really good.  It, like "The Civil War" also by Burns as you know, keeps your interest.  I thought of your dad Schizz as the talked about the pacific conflict.  Wonder if your dad was in some of the old clips of the naval battles and footage.  I know that is one in a million chance but its nice to think of him there anyway, along with Uncle John, Uncle Frank and one the Hutchison's side Arlene's brother Herb, even though they were in different branches, it was the same Pacific War, all honored you know. ...

Thinking about you Stephen and everyone in your family, pray you are all doing well and keeping warm.  I know I am writing early but couldn't try to get some sleep until I let you know I love you and have a good day today, still fighting the flu, seems to be in my sinuses now...you know how your head feels pressured.  Anyway hope you are doing fine...love ya, enjoy this post, smile!

They brought Mama's family on MeTv.  The kids love to watch it with me when we all can sit down and watch it together.  We use to watch the old reruns up in Willard before Jeff passed.  Carianne loves this episode..  I tell her, it is true to fact Hope this gives you and everyone up in Amesbury a smile Stephen, Love you so much Schizz, please be taking care of yourself!

        Here I am up late or early depending how its viewed.  Feeling better, still a little woozy but able to get a few chores done without taking breaks in between.  I can tell ya Schizz, had caffeine earlier tonight, big mistake, I will be up a little while longer, laying down with my eyes closed and mind going a mile a minute.        I wanted to tell you that Mrs Luella Yarnell died, she was my elementary school teacher for the first grade.  She was strong in the community, I wasn't sure if you knew her.  She was a great teacher.  I seen her once when I worked at Big Bear, she greeted me and knew who I was right off the bat, like you, she had one of those smiles that is very difficult to forget.  I hate sharing sad news but I think if you know someone, you have a right to know what happens to them especially when you move away from the community,  My mom, dad, and my sisters knew her too.   I put in fo...

Missing You Schizz, Pray everyone is doing ok Stephen, especially you, Love you so very much!

      Been fighting a rash of aches and pains, fever and chills, burning up right now.  For five days straight I haven't felt good, physically or emotionally.  Still trying to figure out how to make up the drop in income come this May, just feel like such an idiot.  Smarter people fair better I guess than ones like me that fight to remember things.   Down on myself right now.  Heart sad     Mom has been sick too but she says she is doing better, the kids had their first snow day of the school year,   Hard to believe that they are about three and a half months to the end of the year.     Things are the same otherwise.   I am sorry I haven't written and I do hope and pray you and all the family are doing well, staying warm and safe.  Always think about you Stephen, you know that, miss you everyday, seems like the only happy point in my life is thinking about you..Jon and Cari too of course but I feel so empty wi...

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  Hi Stephen,             Pray you are doing ok and everyone there is fine too.  I am still feeling down,  Just wish I could see your encouraging smile and hear your reassuring voice right now, a hug from you would be wonderful!   Still plugging away at ideals, still not feeling the best but doing my workout on the bike and getting used to my diet.  Funny I got my flu shot but feel offish, I do know the shots are geared for the last years strain of bugs.  Stressing over things don't help either.      I am working on positive thoughts, have to force a smile sometimes, you know that is not usually a problem for me, recently it has.      I did promise you some amusing stories about The Holidays,  Carianne had me pick up her best friend Crystal must of the holiday, teenage girls roaming the house is a nightmare for mothers and older brothers.  The constant laughing and giggling was interes...

     Boy do I have to make some drastic changes to my diet.  I really like my new Doctor at OhioHealth, she is very good and on the button.  The good news that I got today was my blood pressure was good, how I did that is beyond me, considering the holiday weight gain..oh yes, very distraught about that, I could kick myself a thousand times over.  My blood work came out good, that is a medical wonder.   Dr. Barnett put me on a "Dash" diet for hypertension and I am to use my exercise bike for ten minutes a day, low impact .  So I am spinning along with you Schizz , so glad I have my own, too self conscious to be in a group.   For the shortness of breath and winded, weight or stress of course, she is going to run a stress test on me..otherwise I am due for my mammogram and that darn colonoscopy...don't want that at all..you should hear the horror stories I hear about that, especially from dad, h loves to tell of mom's experience while laughing ...

  Hello Stephen, hope and pray all is well in your "Neck Of The Woods"  been a long day.  I do want to extend my regrets for spouting off yesterday, have been getting worked up about all of it.  I made my trip today but it wasn't eventful.  Gary's Will was never filed and when I went to see the attorney's office they said they couldn't get a copy because I wasn't an executor of the will, so I am back to asking Pat again, hoping she will comply, have to wait and see.  Arlene's will I didn't get into to, have to tackle that some other time soon, my head was killing me today as it had been a long time since I had been in Norwalk, Ohio.   Have to go in to 801 Ohio Health tomorrow..not really looking forward to that mainly because of the running so much lately, just tired.  I work out but sometimes I get winded and light headed, think I am way out of shape..no big surprise there, been retaining water like crazy..I know yeah been using salt again. ...

       Monday after the Holidays , still feel off, still tired and still trying to catch up with stuff that still needs done.  This week is no different than it was the start of two weeks ago.  Today I had to run to town to get a money over, stop at "People In Need", start dinner and pick up Carianne from track conditioning at school.       tomorrow, I have to put air in my tires and make a trip up to the Huron County Court House in Norwalk, Ohio to get copies of Gary and Arlene's will for future reference.  Dad and mom suggested I do so.  The reasons is to make sure that what was meant for the kids, stays with the kids.   Pat has been real silent about things and starting to progress back to her less than savory self..so to speak, its got me worried.  What tipped me a little was a comment a friend of hers made on Facebook, posted to my page.    Apparently Pat had upset this lady enough for her to spout off on ...

                                   What a busy last two weeks having the kids off on Christmas break, hard to believe its the new year already.     Its been non stop running with two teenage girls, Carianne and her friend Crystal, she is like another daughter.  I wanted to stop and take a moment to wish you Stephen and your family a wonderful time on this first day of the new year, praying that this will be a good year with many blessings.    I hope the kids an I will get to see ya this year, until then, you have a glorious day, love you so very much Schizz.  I am going to have to write you a big letter of all the happenings this past Holiday , or this crazy past two weeks.  Going to go over to my folks today after being up north to visit the kids grandma Pat.  Made our annual stop at the cemetery, Jon did the driving this year, the kids did super!